Lazy?

One thing that I have noticed myself doing is starting a project and not completing it. What do people call that? I blame it on my ADD whatever it is.

I have not been putting my health on the forefront, in fact, it's on the back burner. Yep, I did it again.

I have been craving ice cream, snickers, brownies, oatmeal cream pies, Sbux's reduced fat cinnamon swirl coffee cakes, and all the other artificial sweetened garbage. My comfort food make me fat. :( If only I were craving fruits and vegetables...

I have been incredibly stressed out. I had a change to my career and it was a sudden change. It was not unexpected, but it was not welcome.

I have plans to work out and even have it on my calendar on my phone, but I don't go do it. Why? I haven't the slightest idea.

Wait, I think I do, and it is disgusting. I need to get past this frame of mind.

I want so badly to be pregnant. My husband and I are not trying just yet - it's not time. I now have a gut. I hold onto my stomach thinking in my mind that I am pregnant. I love it. It is sick.

Sick, sick, sick.

I want a belly, but I want a baby in my belly and not excess fat.

One thing I think of is when I am actually pregnant is that this excess fat will contaminate the amniotic sack and my child will be prone to fatness it's entire life.

So, in realizing this, I have decided to take up running. I've never liked the feeling of being out of air and not breathing smoothly. I plan on training myself while I'm learning the best ways to run. I'm starting off small. Walk a block and on the side streets, jog. Walk the block, jog on the side street. Do this every day, since I'm starting off small. One block this week. Then I'll figure out what I need to do next. Like I said, I've never done this before.

I've got a CNA test on Tuesday (tomorrow) and I will hopefully hear from the hospital if they have considered my interest in working there.

I have a Speech Thursday night that I haven't even written yet. Ooops.

I need to get started.

I apologize for not updating everyone sooner, but alas, I have an issue with finishing something after I start it.