My last final is on Monday. On Tuesday I will be waking up around 4am to get in line outside at the Midland College Technical building on Cuthbert. At 7am they will open the doors and I will be able to register to get my CNA.
I am so ready for my classes to be over this semester. I know that when I stress, I tend to crave sugar/carbs/fat. I also tend to get depressed and mad at myself when I deny myself a workout. Tomorrow morning at 11:45am there will be an RPM class at the Midland YMCA. I'm going to take it.
Right now, I am going to write some papers for my psychology class - I've been putting this class off until I can't put it off anymore. No joke. It's a bad idea to procrastinate.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Thursday, December 06, 2012
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
Let Down
Well, I have let myself down again.
It's too hard.
I don't want to.
I'm too fat.
I'll go to the gym tomorrow. Then tomorrow I say the same thing.
It will take too long to get in shape.
It's going to take a lot of work to get where I was 4 months ago.
I will have to make a meal plan.
I can't believe I let myself get this fat.
I'm back where I was before I started working out.
I have a problem. I beat myself up mentally which is NOT good. I lose all motivation then I beat myself up for not even going on a walk.
I'll put on my workout clothes to go to the gym then something steals my attention and what do you know, 3 hours later I haven't moved from the computer.
I was going to post pictures of myself on the 21st, but have decided against that as I have not lost weight, but actually gained even more.
I don't know where to get started. So much for inspiration for other people. I think I've let y'all down.
I'll be back.
It's too hard.
I don't want to.
I'm too fat.
I'll go to the gym tomorrow. Then tomorrow I say the same thing.
It will take too long to get in shape.
It's going to take a lot of work to get where I was 4 months ago.
I will have to make a meal plan.
I can't believe I let myself get this fat.
I'm back where I was before I started working out.
I have a problem. I beat myself up mentally which is NOT good. I lose all motivation then I beat myself up for not even going on a walk.
I'll put on my workout clothes to go to the gym then something steals my attention and what do you know, 3 hours later I haven't moved from the computer.
I was going to post pictures of myself on the 21st, but have decided against that as I have not lost weight, but actually gained even more.
I don't know where to get started. So much for inspiration for other people. I think I've let y'all down.
I'll be back.
Friday, November 09, 2012
Back on Track - with exercise plan
So as you know from my last post, I lost my email address and password. I let it stress me out beyond belief and guess what I did to cope? Yep, I stuffed my face. Somehow I've got to learn that doing that only harms me and does nothing to help the situation. Does anyone have a technique they've learned to help them control their food problems?
So, today I'm putting my foot down. No more self-sabotaging. Not gonna do it!
I have thought about an exercise plan to get me started towards my goal. In addition to the goal of losing 35lbs, I would also like to be physically fit to ski this winter.
Last year around Christmastime, my husband and I stayed with a friend in Ruidoso, NM to go skiing. I had not been working out at all and had an extremely weak core. I skied maybe 2 hours and I was done. To the truck I went to read my kindle while my athletic husband skied all over the mountain without my company. Major bummer. Fast forward to March. We had worked out using the P90X method going on about 60 days. I skied the entire day. My core was more solid than it was 2.5 months earlier. I only stopped to potty and snack a couple of times, but you couldn't convince me I needed to stop. I had so much fun, I want another full skiing season like I had that one day in March.
Today, I start. No more excuses.
This is what I have planned, but this is not set in stone. I'll have to figure out if it will work. Every morning I will walk the dog for at least 20 minutes to start out. She's as out of shape as I am. Gradually we'll pick it up.
Day 1 (Friday November 9th)
The AB Ripper X from P90X.
Exercise machines for a whole body weight lifting routine. Arms-back-legs-butt.
A nice 3-4mph walk on the treadmill to cool down. No incline today.
Day 2 (Saturday November 10th)
Rest Day
Day 3 (Sunday November 11th)
Plyometrics
Day 4 (Monday November 12th)
Exercise machines Arms-back
Ab ripper x
Day 5 (Tuesday November 13th)
LesMills RPM
Day 6 (Wednesday November 14th)
Ab ripper x
Exercise machines legs-butt
Day 7 (Thursday November 15th)
Yoga
Day 8 (Friday November 16th)
Ab ripper x
Exercise machines Arms-back-legs-butt
Day 9 (Saturday November 17th)
Rest Day
Day 10 (Sunday November 18th)
Bicycle ride 10-20 miles (weather permitting)
Day 11 (Monday November 19th)
Exercise machines Arms-back
Ab ripper x
Day 12 (Tuesday November 20th)
Yoga
Day 13 (Wednesday November 21st)
Exercise machines Arms-back
Ab ripper x
Day 14 (Thursday November 22nd)
Plyometrics
Day 15 (Friday November 23rd)
Exercise machines arms-back-legs-butt
Ab ripper x
Day 16 (Saturday November 24th)
REST DAY
Day 17 (Sunday November 25th)
P90X yoga
.... we'll see how this goes.
Nutrition wise, I need to work on this daily as well. I'm seeing a Naturopathic Doctor on the 12th so he can figure out why my thyroid levels are so low. Hopefully he'll be able to answer a lot of questions I have and I won't have to get stuck taking a thyroid medication the rest of my life here on earth. That would suck.
So. here's to getting started on a plan that I hope will work. I am determined to try it. I CAN DO IT!
“It doesn’t matter where you are, you are nowhere compared to where you can go.” -Bob Proctor
So, today I'm putting my foot down. No more self-sabotaging. Not gonna do it!
I have thought about an exercise plan to get me started towards my goal. In addition to the goal of losing 35lbs, I would also like to be physically fit to ski this winter.
Last year around Christmastime, my husband and I stayed with a friend in Ruidoso, NM to go skiing. I had not been working out at all and had an extremely weak core. I skied maybe 2 hours and I was done. To the truck I went to read my kindle while my athletic husband skied all over the mountain without my company. Major bummer. Fast forward to March. We had worked out using the P90X method going on about 60 days. I skied the entire day. My core was more solid than it was 2.5 months earlier. I only stopped to potty and snack a couple of times, but you couldn't convince me I needed to stop. I had so much fun, I want another full skiing season like I had that one day in March.
Today, I start. No more excuses.
This is what I have planned, but this is not set in stone. I'll have to figure out if it will work. Every morning I will walk the dog for at least 20 minutes to start out. She's as out of shape as I am. Gradually we'll pick it up.
Day 1 (Friday November 9th)
The AB Ripper X from P90X.
Exercise machines for a whole body weight lifting routine. Arms-back-legs-butt.
A nice 3-4mph walk on the treadmill to cool down. No incline today.
Day 2 (Saturday November 10th)
Rest Day
Day 3 (Sunday November 11th)
Plyometrics
Day 4 (Monday November 12th)
Exercise machines Arms-back
Ab ripper x
Day 5 (Tuesday November 13th)
LesMills RPM
Day 6 (Wednesday November 14th)
Ab ripper x
Exercise machines legs-butt
Day 7 (Thursday November 15th)
Yoga
Day 8 (Friday November 16th)
Ab ripper x
Exercise machines Arms-back-legs-butt
Day 9 (Saturday November 17th)
Rest Day
Day 10 (Sunday November 18th)
Bicycle ride 10-20 miles (weather permitting)
Day 11 (Monday November 19th)
Exercise machines Arms-back
Ab ripper x
Day 12 (Tuesday November 20th)
Yoga
Day 13 (Wednesday November 21st)
Exercise machines Arms-back
Ab ripper x
Day 14 (Thursday November 22nd)
Plyometrics
Day 15 (Friday November 23rd)
Exercise machines arms-back-legs-butt
Ab ripper x
Day 16 (Saturday November 24th)
REST DAY
Day 17 (Sunday November 25th)
P90X yoga
.... we'll see how this goes.
Nutrition wise, I need to work on this daily as well. I'm seeing a Naturopathic Doctor on the 12th so he can figure out why my thyroid levels are so low. Hopefully he'll be able to answer a lot of questions I have and I won't have to get stuck taking a thyroid medication the rest of my life here on earth. That would suck.
So. here's to getting started on a plan that I hope will work. I am determined to try it. I CAN DO IT!
“It doesn’t matter where you are, you are nowhere compared to where you can go.” -Bob Proctor
Wednesday, November 07, 2012
LOST EMAIL AND PASSWORD
Phew!!! It's been a stressful 2 weeks! I forgot to write my email google email address and password down. I just knew I would remember it. Well, I didn't and I lost it.
The last 30 minutes I tried hard core to remember my stuff and viola! I did. Yeah!
I have done horrible in watching what I eat, when I eat, how I eat, and everything else associated with health.
I was just invited to go workout with some friends this evening so I am headed to the gym now.
Thanks for being so patient with me to write another post.
I'll be back soon to get things up to speed.
In Him,
Megan
The last 30 minutes I tried hard core to remember my stuff and viola! I did. Yeah!
I have done horrible in watching what I eat, when I eat, how I eat, and everything else associated with health.
I was just invited to go workout with some friends this evening so I am headed to the gym now.
Thanks for being so patient with me to write another post.
I'll be back soon to get things up to speed.
In Him,
Megan
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
The beginning: why is it always so tough?
Where to start? Hmmm. I'll start with a little background of my life.
I've always struggled with my weight. I've struggled with my body image since I was in 6th grade. People used to call me bean-pole, skinny bitch, a stick with two mosquito bites for boobs. I heard it all. It all hurt. My Mom would hear from people asking her if she fed me. She did. She and Dad worked very hard to provide for my brother and I. We never went hungry. I was just skinny.
Fast forward to my college years. I sat indoors all the time, ate college dorm room food and definitely didn't exercise. That's when I noticed the change. I wasn't quite fat yet, but slowly over the course of the last 10 years I packed it all on.
Check this out:
In 2002 I weighed 120 pounds.
In 2011(November to be exact) I weighed 183 pounds. My heaviest! The most sick I've ever been, too!
In between 2003 and 2008 I went through hell and back emotionally, spiritually and physically. I was weakened until I hit rock bottom. I was wise enough to get counseling and got that crap taken care of.
I am grateful to tell you that I am now married to a very, very wonderful man. He loves me for me, in my weakness and in my strength. He supports me in all my endeavors and for that I am thankful. I am so blessed to be loved by an incredible human being. We are celebrating our 1 year wedding anniversary on Monday (29th). I want this weight-loss for us so one day when we decide to have children, I will be healthy enough to have them and keep up with them. I also want to be able to keep up with my husband. He is very outdoorsy, active, and I want to not only keep up with him, but I want to stay active with him and our future children. I want to hike, camp, bicycle, sail, travel, exercise and not get exhausted.
The reason for me creating this blog is so I will be motivated to exercise, eat right, and not jump off track when I have a weak moment and crave a treat. I do that all too often. I tell myself, "I'll start eating better tomorrow", "Since I ate that candy bar, I'll just eat bad all day", "You're not good enough to lose weight", "You put off that project at school, you've been bad, now have this treat to make you feel better", "I used to fit in these jeans, now they don't. Look what you did to yourself, you stupid fatty"... that last one hurts. I catch myself saying that a lot.
To say the least, I'm pretty damn desperate. I need to be held accountable. I need your support, kindness, well wishes, prayers, good thoughts and whatever positive motivation you can give, to help me reach my goal.
My goal:
By Sept 7th 2013 I would like to weigh between 141-145 pounds. I believe I can accomplish this goal. It's time to make this dream a reality.
Current weight:
176 pounds
I will weigh myself 1 month from today. I will have my husband take pictures of me once a month to post on the blog.
This is my first time posting on a blog. This is my first time showing anyone what my body looks like. I am extremely embarrassed to put these pictures up. I am ashamed of what I've done to myself.
With your encouragement, I will succeed. I will try to blog as often as possible. I'll be sharing exercises that I like, recipes I like, vitamins I'm taking, I'll write about how often I feel like a busted can of biscuits! Haha! Follow me, support me!
Let's do this!
Thanks,
Megan
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me,"
2 Cor 12:9
I've always struggled with my weight. I've struggled with my body image since I was in 6th grade. People used to call me bean-pole, skinny bitch, a stick with two mosquito bites for boobs. I heard it all. It all hurt. My Mom would hear from people asking her if she fed me. She did. She and Dad worked very hard to provide for my brother and I. We never went hungry. I was just skinny.
Fast forward to my college years. I sat indoors all the time, ate college dorm room food and definitely didn't exercise. That's when I noticed the change. I wasn't quite fat yet, but slowly over the course of the last 10 years I packed it all on.
Check this out:
In 2002 I weighed 120 pounds.
In 2011(November to be exact) I weighed 183 pounds. My heaviest! The most sick I've ever been, too!
In between 2003 and 2008 I went through hell and back emotionally, spiritually and physically. I was weakened until I hit rock bottom. I was wise enough to get counseling and got that crap taken care of.
I am grateful to tell you that I am now married to a very, very wonderful man. He loves me for me, in my weakness and in my strength. He supports me in all my endeavors and for that I am thankful. I am so blessed to be loved by an incredible human being. We are celebrating our 1 year wedding anniversary on Monday (29th). I want this weight-loss for us so one day when we decide to have children, I will be healthy enough to have them and keep up with them. I also want to be able to keep up with my husband. He is very outdoorsy, active, and I want to not only keep up with him, but I want to stay active with him and our future children. I want to hike, camp, bicycle, sail, travel, exercise and not get exhausted.
The reason for me creating this blog is so I will be motivated to exercise, eat right, and not jump off track when I have a weak moment and crave a treat. I do that all too often. I tell myself, "I'll start eating better tomorrow", "Since I ate that candy bar, I'll just eat bad all day", "You're not good enough to lose weight", "You put off that project at school, you've been bad, now have this treat to make you feel better", "I used to fit in these jeans, now they don't. Look what you did to yourself, you stupid fatty"... that last one hurts. I catch myself saying that a lot.
To say the least, I'm pretty damn desperate. I need to be held accountable. I need your support, kindness, well wishes, prayers, good thoughts and whatever positive motivation you can give, to help me reach my goal.
My goal:
By Sept 7th 2013 I would like to weigh between 141-145 pounds. I believe I can accomplish this goal. It's time to make this dream a reality.
Current weight:
176 pounds
Side view... ugh.
This is my backside... ugh.
I will weigh myself 1 month from today. I will have my husband take pictures of me once a month to post on the blog.
This is my first time posting on a blog. This is my first time showing anyone what my body looks like. I am extremely embarrassed to put these pictures up. I am ashamed of what I've done to myself.
With your encouragement, I will succeed. I will try to blog as often as possible. I'll be sharing exercises that I like, recipes I like, vitamins I'm taking, I'll write about how often I feel like a busted can of biscuits! Haha! Follow me, support me!
Let's do this!
Thanks,
Megan
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me,"
2 Cor 12:9
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)